Today was a very liberating day for me. I believe I've shared with you that I had a falling out with a friend last year. Actually it will be 1 year at the end of April. I've pretty much moved on but this past week I took a big step in completely moving on with my life without said "friend". About 3 days ago I had decided that it was time to make it official and de-friend this person on Facebook. I mentioned it to another really good friend that I was going to do that and then I just let it stew, however I didn't do it. But something happened today that made me change my mind. It's such a long drawn out story and I don't want to bore you with it but I will say I did indeed de-friend this person, removed any pictures with that "friend" and removed all tagged photos with that "friend". I was kinda nervous when I started doing it but by the end, I felt stronger. After I finished, about an hour later I started to cry. But I put my big girl pants on and completed the day.
It's really hard to admit when you make a bad choice, whether it's an outfit, date, haircut or friend. I thought this friendship was real and that I would always have this person in my life forever. Heck, for a while I thought this person would stand with me when I finally got married. But it seems that I put more effort, love and caring into this friendship. It was more lop-sided but I didn't realize it until these recent happenings. Time is will heal my wounds and I will find a better friend. I am now free to move on from this whole mess and enjoy my life.
As they say in those cheesy movies "Live, live damn you!" So I will. So today's soundtrack theme is freedom. Enjoy!
My weekend was filled with all types of emotions: sadness, happiness and peace. Friday morning, I headed back home to my hometown, Hereford which in the panhandle. My dearest friend in the world had a family situation and I made my way back to see her. I do not want to get into the details because I want to respect her privacy. However, I was able to be with her when she needed me. I am so blessed that I was able to do so. She has always been there for me and she knows all my deep dark secrets so I had to be there or she would completely spill. :)
While I was there, I stayed at my Aunt Irene's house. I was there for two nights and enjoyed my time with her. It was a bit sad because my old apartment is two blocks from there. Lots of memories came back to me as I drove past my old block. During my stay, I did try past my apartment. It still looks the same except for the trees. Now they actually look like trees as opposed to tall, skinny sticks with five leaves.
Being back home did kind of recharge me and here's why.
1. Silence can be good: I sat outside in my aunt's backyard and watched their dog play in the grass. It was 9:30 at night, there was no sounds of airplanes flying by or sirens. The only sound I could hear was the train passing through Hereford. I sat there and closed my eyes and enjoyed the silence. It was so calming.
2. Network down: I didn't really use any social networking. Actually, I really didn't follow anything. I spent my time talking to my two aunts and lots of cousins.
3. Sunday driver: I took it slow. It's a small town and people tend drive slower. No one is really in a rush. Of course it was the weekend but even so, it was nice to take a leisurely drive.
I know you can't go home again but you can visit and make more memories. For today's soundtrack, the theme is home. Enjoy!
